Let me tell you the truth.
Revising chapter 2 scares the bejeebies out of me. Chapter 2 was the first chapter I ever wrote, back in February and March of 2009. Then I revised the chapter significantly last February to refocus it. Even then, it wasn’t quite there. I thought, at the time, that it was about a certain theme.
Advisor read it and said, “I know we’ve talked about this a lot, and I know I encouraged you to look down this line of thought – but I’m not sure this chapter is about this theme at all. Spend some more time with this.”
Once again, the pieces are there. Haphazardly at least. I love this chapter in so many ways. The subject matter fascinates me. The evidence is amazing. Now if I could just see the forest for the trees, I’d be a huge step closer.
Last week with chapter 1, the issue was that it took me that long to simply figure out what the argument was. Now – well, I think I’ve got the argument (it just needs some slight tweaking from what it was, I think). Now it’s simply a matter of making sure it’s just so.
But the problem right now is confidence, I think. That’s the way it goes with dissertating. Some days there’s bravado and some days there’s reluctance to get started. Today is the latter, but I’ve learned that reluctance is simply something to be ignored.